Breaking Chains

So lost in my thoughts I look up and see her. This girl is amazing. I can see how she resists temptations, pushes past her pain, and laughs as if she's never been hurt. She has a smile that could light a room and passion bubbling to get out. She stands up even when she is afraid. She is strong as if nothing could bring her down.

As I am standing there, I can't take my eyes off of her. I continue to watch her and I become so overwhelmed. Crippled by this feeling, I fall to my knees and the tears start to stream down my cheeks. The trickle of tears becomes uncontrollable sobs. I know this girl. I thought she was gone forever. Wiping away my tears, I know I need to go to her. I try to stand but I can't. Something is stopping me. I watch as I see her getting away...again.

Still on my knees, too tired to stay upright, I collapse. My face is now to the floor with nowhere to go. Helpless, I begin to sob. My body weak and my heart tired, the tears continue to flow around me. As the puddles form, so do words. "DOUBT!" "FEAR!" "STUPID!" "FAT!" "UNWORTHY!" "UGLY!" These words have burrowed themselves into me. They have wrapped themselves around me like chains for so long making it hard to move, let alone breathe. As I lay there, weighed down by these lies, I realize they are the reason I could never catch that girl.

I have been letting life pass me by, be pushed aside, and taken advantage of. I was CREATED to shine! I was CREATED to catch that girl because when the fog dissipates and clarity sets in, I can see I was looking at me in the mirror the whole time.

I am ready to shine and break the chains, for good, that have been keeping me down all this time.