When we are weak that seems the best time for the enemy to pounce on us, he seems to know exactly what makes us tick. He wants to drag us away from our Heavenly Father at any cost. This is what I have been experiencing lately. I feel like I’m trying to walk with God but the enemy has latched onto my back and is trying to slow me down and stop me in my tracks. I feel like every choice and every step takes an extra effort.
The enemy knows what my heart desires so he tempts me with it, only it is cheap! It hurts me, lets me down, and breaks my heart over and over. But I allow it because I am weak. I didn’t believe that I deserved anything better, that this was as good as it got. Oh how wrong I was! God heard my cries when I had my face to the floor crying out to Him. He heard me and said “My daughter! I love you! I know that you are weak and cannot let go of this yourself so I’m taking it from you. I have something glorious planned for you! Don’t settle for what the world has to offer you!”
This is one of the most painful, heart wrenching things I have ever been through. I didn’t want to hurt anymore but I couldn’t let go of what was hurting me. God literally had to rip it from my grasp and I had to surrender it to Him! Every time I think about going back, I stop myself and remember that God has something so perfect for me! He has not forgotten about me. The opposite is happening, He is stretching me and reminding me to come to Him, to trust the plan He has for me, because it is so, so wonderful!
